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Feeling raped.

I feel like ive been decieved by someone i really really trusted (dont worri! Not mah boo!) but i feel like... someones broken into a part of me that I didnt want to share with them. Invasion of privacy. And when i remind them that what they did was wrong... they become stubborn and come up with excuses that it was alright for them to do so and that they had *every right* to do it. Excuse me?! No really... excuse me?! Then they go off at me for not keeping my promises... but you know what. Trust goes two ways. You promised you¡¦d never do this again... yet you did it. So who the fuck are you to lecture me about trust and keeping promises? Well no matter what I say, youre not gonna change.  So theres no point going on and on about it here. Youre always going to be insecure. Paranoid and scared and just... fuck this. Its up to you. But if you cant keep your word then theres no reason why i should keep mine anymore.  Hey! Its only fair!

God send me an angel... <<>>

hey everyone whatz goin on... been feelin a little homesick lately *sigh* so show me sum luv n leave me sum propz n commentz aite! Dammm... really missin hk... like causeway, cdnis, all mah friendz... its just not the same ova here! The ppl arent the same, the places arent the same... and worse itz like... my familys not even here! So im pretty much on my own here if ya get what im sayin. Grrr. Wanna go back... dont get me wrong, i luv it here its just different thasall... Just tha whole lifestyle in hk, so fun n relaxed... so... hrmm trynna find the word... itz just so HK!! Rambleramble. I actuali started gettin a bit teary at school today. Just havin one of dem natural lows. O well, hopefully ill be back there really soon :) in tha meantime, herez sumthin i jacked off someonez site hehe... enjoi :)

WEIRD SAYING YOU HAVE: *go fuck a tree*
WHAT SCHOOL DO YOU GO TO?: st caths
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF SOUL MATES?: uhh... i rekn they do exist but i dont believe that theres only one for each of us.
IS IT RIGHT TO FLIRT IF YOU HAVE A BF/GF?: to flirt WITH them, yea! Course! but if itz someone else.. yeh i guess so as long as u dont take it any further than just flirtin.
WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU CRIED OR GOT TEARY ABOUT?: how much i hate st caths n how much i miss hk!!
WHAT'S AN OBJECT YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT?: camera. Phone.
LOVE OR LUST?: both. Love is amazin, lust is fun. So lusty love.
SILVER OR GOLD?: silver... goldz too tacky.
DIAMOND OR PEARL?: diamonds... pearlz are too tacky.
SUNSET OR SUNRISE? Same thing. Different times.
HAVE YOU EVER GONE SKINNY-DIPPING?: ....kinkiness? ;)
DO YOU SLEEP WITH STUFFED ANIMALS?: two! Hahaha :P shutup.
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?: back in the day ¡V missy elliot ft. jayz
WHERE WOULD YOU WANT TO GO ON YOUR HONEYMOON?: spain!!
WHO DO YOU WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH?: someone i¡¦ll never get sick and someone who i can talk to easily of because the rest of my life is a helluva long time!
WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?: just overall first impression.
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: mah friendz.
WHAT'S THE BEST ADVICE GIVEN TO YOU?: you only live once.
WHAT ARE YOUR FUTURE GOALS?: enjoy life to the fullest.
ON THE PHONE OR IN PERSON?: in person
HUGS OR KISSES?: both.. at the same time... ?
IF YOU DIED TOMORROW- WHO WOULD YOU LEAVE EVERYTHING TO?: mom.
DO YOU HAVE ANY ENEMIES?: nope. :)
WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST FEAR?: having to face my fears.
WOULD YOU RATHER BE RICH OR FAMOUS?: rich. So i can actually live my life without the world on my ass.
WHAT TIME IS IT IN ALBANIA NOW?: ITZ ACTIVITY TIME!! (rofl stine!! Theres a rhino hidin somewhere in this room! Hahhaha *personal joke*)
HAVE YOU MET SANTA?: yeah! He carried me to my bed when i was in grade 2 coz i fell asleep in the living room! :P i swear to god...
IF E.T. KNOCKED ON YOUR DOOR HOLDING UP A PEACE SIGN ASKING TO USE YOUR PHONE WHAT WOULD YOU DO?: offer him a joint. Hahaha! Jp.. id give him a bigggg hug.

Love. Hugz. Kissez. Glowstickz - CokiE

mY weekEnd...

todayz wisdom: some games you play... some games play you.

Friday-

Single  :)

Saturday-

Was  going to go out with taz but she had to babysit so that was depressing. :P oh well, spent the day with grandma which was alright.  Went to lunch and then she read my mind and was like *lets go to westfield!* and im like YES! PLEASE! So yuppp bought some niiiice stuf. Just in one of those spending moods i guess.  Then christine came over after that! Omfg i hadnt seen her for AGES so that was good, a lot of catching up and all. Listening to her talk about MacRobs... i kind of regret not getting in... seems like a good school... *sigh* i realy wana leave st caths. Im so sick of it.  The ppl (well most of them), the system, the uniform, the rules.  Its just not the place for me ykno?! And no matter HOW many times i tell my parents that theyre all *Give it a good chance!*  ERRRRRR. Ive given it a year and nothings changed. And it doesnt take that long to realize that its somewhere that you dont reali feel comfortable in. i dont get why they want me to stay in st caths so much. Theres nothin special about it. Shit rep, nothin special bout the system its the same as anywhere else, its snobby and uptight. Blah. No point complaining.

Sunday

Mothers day! Called mom first thing in the morning of course.  Talked to my dad as well and he said that they are definately moving back to melbourne in june! Yessss...Gonna live a normal life again! And gonna be able to see my fam again... living with geoff again... hehe. Somethin to look forward to :) well had lunch then evan came and picked me up and we went for a drive, he surprised me by takin me out to arthurs seat but since the seats werent runnin we just drove up to tha top of the hill and watched the view! Lol... omfg it was so gorjuz...normally im not that into views and things but THIS was just... phwoah... got some photos too n i will post them up some time soon.  Then i had to go to auntie rositas for dinner and that was reali good! Christine was there too :) when i got back the boarding house, i was carrying ma rose from ma boo...  chanel and leela went SKITZ.  But then u shoulda seen when they told alex... she ran into my room and choked me :\ rofl she just screamed for hours. Tsktsk. But yer im happy... woz a reali good weekend :)

Love. Hugz. Kissez. Glowstickz - CokiE

Todays wisdom:  Everythings okay in the end. If its not okay, then its not the end.

Wasup everyone! :) todays been a drainer... stayed up pretty late on the phone last night and only got a couple hours sleep so yeh... dragged my ass to school...oMg tulley hates me now, she wont let me sleep! I got really really dizzy so i went and told her that i needed to have a lie down and shes like *you look fine, Coco* and im like ERRRR i dont feel fine... so obligingly walked back to history and luckily mrs bell could tell i was a bit out of it so she cut me some slack for the lesson :) whewww... thats really my day.

OH! Sal gave me her optus simcard! So yehhh now i can use freecall n shit... *gets two hours sleep for the rest of the year* hehehe.

Last night... went to Alex, Leela n Chanelz room.. mah three babiesss!! :D

Haha that was pretty fun... aw im so happy alex is back from the states! But yeh last night was pretty good, just ravin away to some random cd lol... and Leela was such a spaz, she kept callin mah bear by the wrong name. tsktsk. Mullivan, leela?! Rofl. Just one of those good boardin house nights :)

Thats all for today. Take care all.

Love. Hugz. Kissez. Glowstickz ¡V CokiE